My Last Stand...

My performance between now and the beginning of the second semester has been inconsistent. There were times when I would try and, honestly, not try at all. I know that I am 100% responsible and accountable for the bad work ethic that I have previously been showing. I also know that Mr. T is very disappointed, as well as I am, with myself. The oaths and promises I had made in the past were unfulfilled and broken. I consider this my explanation to my failure and somewhat of a last plea for a chance at improvement, something I know that I have to and will work hard for.
Work ethic is the most important aspect to a student who is trying to master AP Physics and compete with other students from around the world. This is something I have been EXTREMELY lacking lately. Through summarizing my work/performance the first half of the third quarter, I can say that I did either half or less assignments and have turned them in on time. I have taken my tests and tried my best, but know I have only scored at least 3’s or 2’s. My studying for one hour a night for AP Physics has been inconsistent and unacceptable. I have missed four days of school between now and Winter Break. I have tried to do practice problems but fail because of my lack of collaborating with a “working” study group. I have also been lacking of using a Socratic Dialogue during class. All, and a few others, of these flaws help contribute to what I call my “failure” within this college course based class.
The late submitting of this blog is unacceptable. Ironically, I honestly wouldn’t have wanted it posted any sooner because of the conclusions I had derived upon creating it. I didn’t post the blog sooner because I still wanted to add something more, somewhat of a deeper explanation as to why I have been the same, static person. Upon contemplating different revisions and aspects to it, I learned more about myself, along with reasons to my actions. These acquired observations are what I think are needed to create an effective and satisfying blog entry.
Interestingly, I think I know what the major source is to all of this “failure.” To perform actions, the performer(s) must have an incentive, or motivation. My bad performance has been caused by bad, or what I consider an insufficient motivation. Things that I have used in the past have not worked consistently, only having finite lasting effects. This can be a source/reason as to why I can’t perform consistently at my best. Having an insufficient MOTIVATION will only end up in insufficient ACTIONS, thus insufficient RESULTS will occur. I believe that I have found a good enough reason as to why I should continue this class, a reason as to why I should do my best. I discovered this new aspect as I was filtering out all of my previous motivations, deciding what should still be used or added so that I could obtain satisfying results. So that Mr. T can see satisfying results. Afraid because I can’t see into the future if this final changed worked, I can only hope that what I now use as an incentive is good enough for what comes ahead.